I’m trans and, until I started HRT, had very little access to my emotions. I would desperately want to cry, and just would be unable. Or I would know I was supposed to be having some kind of emotional reaction to something, and just…wouldn’t.
Very very soon after getting my hormones straightened out, I discovered that I was having emotions in sympathy with characters on tv or in movies. If I was sad I could actually cry for a bit and process the emotion rather than having to channel it into anger or physicality. It was like living in color instead of black and white, this whole arena of human experience I’d read about but hadn’t ever really felt.
I’ve heard the same from trans guys as well; they didn’t ever feel like their emotions made sense until they got on T.
My now-ex reacted to this, first with concern, then with contempt.
I think pixelfed is getting the embrace of death right now