If I had to take a stab in the dark, you may be bi/pan. You can still find the “feminine” form more attractive, be selective about what kind of “masculine” form you find attractive, you may exclusively want to top (feeling of control, like you mentioned). It’s all valid!
Furthermore, I don’t think there’s anything to worry about enjoying casual sex (or sex for money/content) so long as you’re TRULY happy/comfortable/enjoying yourself and try to find a way out the moment you’re not.
To me it doesn’t seem terribly odd that two people may form a very strong non-romantic bond (friendship/brotherhood-like relationships) that end up having good sexual chemistry. The important thing is that you’re honest with your partner and yourself at all times about how you feel.
TLDR; If it feels right, don’t overthink it. We humans are too interesting to fit in neat little boxes.
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If I had to take a stab in the dark, you may be bi/pan. You can still find the “feminine” form more attractive, be selective about what kind of “masculine” form you find attractive, you may exclusively want to top (feeling of control, like you mentioned). It’s all valid!
Furthermore, I don’t think there’s anything to worry about enjoying casual sex (or sex for money/content) so long as you’re TRULY happy/comfortable/enjoying yourself and try to find a way out the moment you’re not.
To me it doesn’t seem terribly odd that two people may form a very strong non-romantic bond (friendship/brotherhood-like relationships) that end up having good sexual chemistry. The important thing is that you’re honest with your partner and yourself at all times about how you feel.
TLDR; If it feels right, don’t overthink it. We humans are too interesting to fit in neat little boxes.