It’s been a good while since the contradictions sharpened hard enough for me to just be like “I changed my sex this past year” and start putting my entire self under the label “nb”. This rules, btw, it’s been very healthy for me. It was distinctly not a Very Special Episode

I think it has presented some terminology and labelling/word trouble though, as much as internal re-sexing of the body is awesome and cool and rad. One of the best examples I can think of is that I kinda wanted an alternative for “wife”, on account that my partner is agender. Between us, we didn’t really come up with anything good, though? I do like saying “my beautiful better half” a lot, but there are many sentences where that doesn’t sub in 1:1 for “wife”, and tbh we might also continue use of that…

I was also big into saying things like “girlkisser” and being a really annoying lesbian all over the place, (I am still into that) and I mean, I could still do that… but there’s not really an equivalently snappy meme to indicate the sort of t4t I am an enjoyer of, I guess. It feels weird, and I just started leaning on saying “t4t” a lot.

I’ll probably get laughed at for this tiny mindpalace, and it does feel a lot of the time like I arrived at being nb backwards, or via incorrect thought or lacking in theory or something. Ripping out and replacing all the gendered terms I use for myself was awesome, it fucks! Trying to change the gendered terms I use to express attraction is painful! Nobody else seems to have this problems though, so y’know, doesn’t feel that good distressing! Unpleasant! What do I read to fix this!!